i’ll just start by saying that im in no way shape or form a minimalist, on the contrary i tend to spend almost all of my monthly income on bullshit; but i do find the idea of living with just the bare essentials to be quite attractive, buying stuff most of the time just becomes a way to cope with stressful situations and most importantly an addiction — which i’ve always tried to avoid all of my life.
aint easy to admit but i’ve fallen in that trap last year, in september, and im still suffering from it.
i used to be very cautious with the way i spend money, but since ive moved to rome its been getting harder and harder to just find a balance between putting some money on the side and getting the stuff i actually want. that isnt to say im burning all of my money away, i still manage to save some by the end of the month: im not starving. i do wish to stop feeding the “system”, getting products has never been easier than it is today hasnt it? combine that with some depressed dude who has a salary of a software developer (and we all know how inflated they are) and you really have a recipie for disaster :(
been watching a lot of matt d’avella latelly and i really envy his way of living: his house looks nice, he seems happy and he also looks p good. i do wonder tho where the youtube “fiction” ends and reality starts creeping in, can minimalism really be that helpful to live a healthier life? tbh i think so, but it aint a straight process. its not even about choosing which things to get rid of, really, its just that the motivation isnt there; and it hasnt been there for a few months now, since december to be exact. funny how aware i am of my issues but im not trying at all to solve them :)
thinking about getting rid of most of my stuff makes me happy tho, the idea of it makes me feel better: i should probably get to it but then again why cant i just bring myself to act on it?
i’ll start throwing stuff out this weekend, may this be a promise. im hopeful i can get a hold of my life again.
ive already started to apply minimalism to my digital life, cant get much of it really due to my job and hobbies but it it what it is. i feel like having decluterred my mac and iphone has already helped me being even more aware of the situation im in, i need to get rid of whats holding me back and experience more of what rome has to offer without spending a fortune — easier said than done, but going out and idk working from a starbucks or a library shouldnt be that hard and they could be a nice change of scenario for once (id def miss my cats, but they’ll be here when i come back home wont they; aint running away from me lmao)
anyway: decluttering. lets go get it.